Books

I love summer because I get to read books just for fun! Not for a college class or assignment where I have to over-analyze everything and don't get to just enjoy the story. That's garbage. I just read a new book that I got yesterday (yes I read all 359 pages in a day and a half don't judge!) but it is a book that has really made me think about the future. Like my family and my future kids and husband. What is it going to be like? Will I say and do the right things? I mean I do not want to be a perfectionist robot but I want to make sure my family has values and that they understand the importance of the values I teach them. I know that I will make mistakes and that they will too, because that is just what happens, but I want them to understand that just because that's who you were yesterday doesn't mean that's who you have to be today. So often I just feel stuck when I make mistakes like there is no coming back from them. I was having a deep discussion about this with one of my best friends and she was like "I feel like I used to be such a good girl and that things would never come to this. But now that I am fixing everything and everything has been forgiven the only person that still judges me is myself. I have to keep reminding myself I am still a good girl whether I make mistakes or not." Mistakes don't change who we truly are they are just a quick detour on the road. Some people just never make it back on the road. And it's thoughts like these that help me to feel better because I really want my kids to be able to look up to me and be able to count on me in the future.