I am Bummed at my Lamerness

Reasons why I am a lamer. Reason one I dont want to go to church tomorrow just because I feel like a fatty and feel like my church clothes show off how much of a chunk I really am. So shallow of me but looking presentable is really important to me. Reason two I have no self control when it comes to some things like any sugary substance basically. I hate it I wish I was stronger or better yet I wish I didnt even like sugar that would be awesome. Reason three lately running hasnt been going very well for me. I cant run as fast and as far and as well as I want to and it makes me upset. So upset. So upset to the point where I feel like the biggest lamer that ever walked this earth. I guess that's where my perfectionism comes into play if I don't look the way I feel like I should, I get like mad at myself. And when I feel mad like that I want to run and do something about it. But you can't run at 7:30 at night in the dark thats dangerous and the p.e. building is closed. And therefore I am s.o.l. and bummed.